be kind. rude people suck.

♥ top i seriously have been busy with work and sales. i got no time for my own and even to meet my HILMI! how could this be?! or how could i even meet my friends when i got no free time on my own. good friends will tend to understand me very well thanks fana. she willingly came over last weekend to have a sleepover with me! haha. will update the pictures soon. we spent the whole night watching a horror movie in the living and snatching each other pillows too! it was scary to see that scary woman face crawling in the tv screen. but the movie is actually crap la. we spent the whole time together until 7 am in the morning the next day! its great to joke around after a really really long time. hugging her was the best thing ever; i swear. she was the greatest smelly thing that i loved since 5 years ago. she was there when i needed her and be there to hold on if i really have to cancel our plan at the very last min, the true friend who understand what i'm going through right now. been busy with work and she know that i need time on my own as well. she never fails to help me out. i miss my hilmi so badly too. i wasn't in the mood to post right now. and thanks to that shorty for making my life difficult now; you totally a pain in the ass friend. sorry. ♥ top I MISS MY NURUL J. AND  FARAH P.!

i really miss my good-good-good friends! 
its really irritating to plan a real day out with your bunch of friends. right after 11/11/09 i NEVER went out any of my friends at all sey. busy with work and major stuffs. i seriously frustrating and if i were to have only a day off. i totally stay home and rest, Christmas is coming! and what so great about it for me? more working hours? BIG MONEY IS COMING! haha. i wasn't very sure if people around is getting better with this kind of awkward attitude of mine towards them now. people change in awhile, better or worst. i don't know about myself. and sister got the same malay teacher as mine during i was in primary school. that teacher is a ______ woman but teaches good malay language. hoepfully she's doing better then me. please don't follow my bad side ok sister. i love you! 




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hilmi ♥
thanks for your time darling. love you! ♥ top you were the one who brought me up since i was young. so young even you were the one who taught me how to walk, taught me how to talk, feed me with the food, make me sleep and send me to school. and suddenly, you left me in this world without you anymore when i was only seven young old. i thought you just gonna leave me just for awhile.

i : "papa, when will mummy come back? how long she'll be staying in the hospital?"
papa: "she's not coming back."

i waited for so long, which makes me wonder sometimes why are we not visiting you in the hospital. instead somewhere else. as days goes  by, it makes me understand why you will never come back. its been ten years now since you left us. after you left for 4 years, i got a sister. finally. she's adorable. but just so sad, she can't see you or touch you. or more worst she'll never feel your love like how i did. how i wish i could turn back time and understand that you'll leave us soon and by then i want to spend my time with you wisely. you left me when i was really young, but that doesn't mean that forgot you. i remember you in everyways. everyday we met, we got so many good memories. and even more wishes for us to make it true. you want to see me to be a succesful girl in future to come. but i want to share it with you. i really miss those days where we really got the whole time together. i miss eating prata with you. i reall y miss you so much nenek! i never felt hari raya with you. i was so young to knw hari raya back then. but this year i wished you here. on the first day, grandpa really reminds me of you! he is still here with us. i'll take care of him liked you takecare of me.  some nights i  dreamt about you, i t just makes me miss you more. 

i miss you so much
i miss kissing you
i miss hugging you
i miss smelling you
i miss smelling your hair
i miss you feeding me eat
i miss you sending me to school
i miss seeing you smile
i miss hearing your laughter
i miss you kissing me
i miss sleeping with you
i miss following you to the wet market
i miss calling you mummy
i miss you nagging
i miss going out with you
i miss you getting ready for me to school
i miss your cooking
seriously, i miss you so badly. i want you to be here now.i want to hug you! its only wishes.
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time: 3 pm

Fana: starbucks?
Me: AGAIN?!?! no thanks. mineral water?
Fana: Your head! boringg. something better?
Me: Eh yesterday i went to buy a school bag for someone, that man didn't gave me receipt you know! i was suppose to get $10 dollar voucher!
Fana: any better idea to think of somewhere to drink? im talking. helloo!
Me: ouh no! see you soon in 3 minutes!
* run to the store immediately*
Fana: oiiiii! AQILAHHHHHHH!

i didn't intend to leave you behind la. but seriously, my mind was on you somehow. but i dont know why im lost. :D so sorry la ok! finally i manage to get the voucher. i wasn't much lar. he might thought im really kiasu. my plan was not to pay him a visit and get the $10 voucher. its just a coincidence for me to be there. so i pay him a visit la. why not?! its not sinful  


Me: excuse me, do you remember me? i bought the navy plain beg here. the last piece? yesterday? 
The man: ouh yar i remember. can i help?
*i explain myself; clearly i suppose!*
The man: my machine is down, sorry! i can give you the voucher now. dont worry
Me: thanks :D

why would i worry if i don't receive the voucher. its just the receipt is important. if it need to be exchange or something la cik abang. lucky you, for remebering me, or else i wont harm you either. im not a bad girl! :D take care tau!


HEY FANA;
didnt want to leave you behind. even almost two hours spent with you is pretty much happy for me. thanks for accompany me here and there today and for the treats too. i wanted you to have much fun later on so didn't want to take up all of your energy. after all, having ice milo was much more better. then having on some espensive drink instead. once in awhile its ok la kn. we'll have them son of course, i promise you! how i wish i could see you turning into a punk rock tonight for your annual dinner and dance. haha. hope you have fun for the whole of today. and im sorry for being so busy, and got no time for you. insyallah, soon ok. you dont have to think too much about me. you can always come and visit me at home whenever you're free. im 24/7 at home from now on. i really miss you too!

to zee:
sorry that i can't make it for study tomorrow. i hope you understand. and good luck in advance for your major exams too! and i won't remind you of the days left again. my apology! keep working hard dear. i know you can do better! we'll see each other soon! if you want to have a study date again, you can always ask me. i'll try to make time for it. takecare! and Good Luck to You ZEEEEEEEEEEEEE! <3

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after two years; i got a new baby now. im glad to have one again which is hug-able and can make me feel better at the time.but i wonder why is she different? only now i realise that its with costume. good la, can her warm all the time. she just came back from the north pole, no wonder la!

hilmi, thanks! :D ♥ top ♥ top ♥ top my 10 recent activies was:

(1) i meet amalinah, last two or three weeks ago. we had fun in vivo city! i swear we should go out again some day or even better study together. you can come over my place for study. dont worry im fine with that. and please dont janji bedek lagi ok!

(2) i didn't go school for quiet some times! and i miss nurul and liyana so much now! we will meet each other soon for study date ok. i promise!

(3) met zee for another study date at starbucks! which is really boring to study maths the whole day! it is really killing me! even zee know how stress am i doing with maths.

(4) met hilmi after that, had heavy dinner and delicious ice-cream treat frm him. WONDERFUL! i had great time with you after a tiring day!

(5) met fana for a warm hug and a cup of hot chocolate at my place as we got alots of things to share like BAD and GOOD news. by doing this its makes our friendship get better and closer. im straight and i won't marry you fana. don't worry. i love you in the other ways! i love you so much!

(6) got a new and colourful tagboard in my burlybuswoman blog!

(7)  im so busy with studies. with mr______ and mr hilmi hassan. mr hilmi is my maths teacher for the past four years. he have done a great job and nagging at me to pass my maths papers! which is coming soon! very soon!

(8) i thought i got a date with fana again, but cancelled! STUDY. STUDY.STUDY

(9) mr hilmi came over again this week for another maths tuition! thanks you! after that we watched 'the proposal' half way! =.= thanks hilmi for coming! i need to pass maths?! HAHA. OK!


(10) ANOTHER TUITION WITH BOTH TEACHERS! ALL I DID WAS STUDY AND STUDY AND STUDY FOR O'S! its really killing me; i cant enjoy anymore. how sad!