AQILAH's ;D

2010-06-29T00:28:00.003+08:00

i admit was was somehow behaving this kind of way most of the time. but it's just me. nobody is perfect.

2010-06-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

finally after eleven years of waiting the toys are back in town! enjoyed to movie yesterday!
*two thumbs up!*

i ♥ my bestfriend!

2010-06-22T21:43:00.007+08:00

wasn't the first time we all went all together. BUT we both girls felt so glad that we manage to snap a picture of us four! had a hard to gathering the guys for some snapshots. what so difficult eh? all you have to do is just SMILE! i've been meeting up with fana very often now as we both are enjoying our school holiday same goes to sham but sadly hilmi is not, he's having his longgggggggggggggggg holidays before having his hair short. getting excited to call him names after all. fana and i just couldn't stop hugging and smelling each other. even on pictures can tell how much we love to hug each other. girls just love hugging, but for sure we're not lesbian eventhough we love each other way too much. girlfriend, i'm staring to miss you already! meet up again before school starts please. :{

PS: i'm glad that i've got a bestfriend in me five years ago , now and forever
i ♥ you babygirl

day out with zee

2010-05-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

finally i met this little girl who never fails to smile. i'm so glad to see her after six months again. and we've got more to catch up soon. thanks to your recommendation on the delicious pasta after being so hungry and can't wait for lunch for the whole day! had a nice chit-chatting with you after so long and thanks for the Polaroid.

We'll meet up soon shall we?

2010-05-15T20:30:00.001+08:00

this season has been really awesome playing with these professional players. some came from different part of the world one of the player came from UK and she often shares about how she plays hockey in high school in UK. hahaha. she make it sound so great and make me want to study hard and study overseas and play hockey somewhere else too. and thanks to coach too who has made the team unite as one and made us come all this far. this is only one quarter of the players in SCC. some are playing in other hockey leagues wishing the all the best and for their finals which are round the corner.

Girls, lets make SCC proud and the ladies hockey in the club. we will sure have more leagues to come. let's not give up and let work hard together. under 21 is in january! and work hard NOWWWW!

I'm getting excited to hit some balls now! or better i want to hit more balls in the goalpost. and this reminds me of one incident where i hit our goalie straight in her head with the hard dotty hockey balls few times when coach made a bet on giving 50 bucks if we could hit the goalie on the helmet. haha! but at least she had a helmet on. but anyway i really am sorry to hit you but honestly i don't have any grudes on you. i still love you. keep saving more goals ok darling!

PS: i ♥ each and every one of you my hockey players. i will always will!

2010-05-05T18:58:00.003+08:00

I've been hearing morning alarm since i started schooling in the morning and i never enjoyed waking up so early and get ready for school unless there's that someone who never fails to wake me up for school in the morning and walk to school together back then. i won't get up of the bed unless my dad knocked on the door and says " You're not up yet? You'll be late for school!" i'll only get up when my dad keep knocking on my door. cause getting my mum knocking on my door won't help, she's just to tired to keep waking me up as she knows i'll be off to sleep once she left the room. and she enjoys seeing me rush to school cause she find it cute to see my hair not combed and grab everything i could.

But today, i didn't press the snooze button and continue my sleep or needed my preants knocking on my door, but instead i grab my lovely pink towel and rush into the bathroom even though i knew i am more than early to get ready for school. i always set my alarm half an hour early before my actual timing, as i never fail to press the snooze button all the time. i always skip breakfast everyday and only have my lunch when it's time. i knew skipping breakfast was bad for health, but that so me who used to skip breakfast every since i started secondary.

"You're up so early. and you don't need me knocking on the door to wake you up. that's good." its was dad as soon as he sees me walking down the stairs.

"i'm in the mood for fresh air. haha. but only today! i need you to wake me up every morning still"

But today was something unusual about me. even though i was early for skip and had the appetite to have my breakfast. but i choose to skipped breakfast as i was somehow lazy to eat or make myself full and get sleepy in class. it's been ages since i last watched cartoons before i go of for school, finally after years i sat down on the sofa and turned on the disney channel and enjoy my favorite cartoon. watching cartoon has never fail to cheered me up no matter how tough the day went for me. i miss my childhood life, where all you got to do at home is watching tv and do a little of counting only! what else could you do at home? you're too young for helping out the the kitchen. helping on the house chores? i'll end up creating a huge mess in the house. but now, i'm old enough to do something like that now. it's all on me now to help my mum.

mummy, i love you so! <3>

2010-05-02T22:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 58TH MONTHSARY TO US HILMI.

We're just two months away from our special day. i really am glad that we could make it this far. don't you? i think i need to stop talking about us so much in this blog, as i got alot to tell on the july post. let's save it all for july alright. too many things been happening, and thanked god i manage to get through all of it. thanks to mummy, daddy, aunt zu and you for all the support i've been through and never fail to cheer me up when i'm down. thank you so much. and hilmi, i bet we got more of this days to come right? i'm so in love with second cause it pass too fast, by the time we knew, we lost count of it and couldn't remember our own monthsary date. =.=that's shows how pathetic are we. after all, we still enjoying each seconds with each other without regrets

"I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you."

2010-04-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

sometimes you want more than what you're given. but you never feel enough of what is given. you just want more or far too more than that you're given. you cannot have everything you want in all your ways. i realize that sometimes i take advantage of things. i want more than this, when i got it, i want even more than that. not until when i see that i cannot keep giving people which are beyond my ability. i cannot do everything or anything just to make that someone satisfy. I'm glad that my families, boyfriend and friends know what i could and i couldn't do and they didn't ask for more. you couldn't have anything and everything all the time. i failed before but i choose to gave up. now, i want to stand of my feet again and keep working hard even though how hard or painful it is. just keep going and never stop. nothing satisfy me until i reach my goal. i have plenty of goals but not all are achieved. i want to make this real. how far it is, i still want to get it. be hungry for this time. ignore the rest, just this once be self-centered and only think about myself as i had never been. i always tried my best to satisfy them. but i never tried to satisfy my love ones who have faith in me or even myself. i disappoint them too much, way too much. its time to make a change

2010-03-25T18:21:00.002+08:00

finally, i came back to live again on blogger. this blog of mine has been long dead since late November. it suck, i know. i was really busy to update and please don't blame me. school has really occupied my whole time. what i aim for this year is to do well better then what I've did last year. maybe its too easy to say it but to prove it right, oh no! its too early to judge on my improvement for now. or maybe should i say "have i improve for the past 3 months?" i myself not sure, but I'm sure by June i will find out. time fly so fast without my knowing i'm only left with seven months. oh dear, this is too fast

2009-11-26T01:31:00.002+08:00

i seriously have been busy with work and sales. i got no time for my own and even to meet my HILMI! how could this be?! or how could i even meet my friends when i got no free time on my own. good friends will tend to understand me very well thanks fana. she willingly came over last weekend to have a sleepover with me! haha. will update the pictures soon. we spent the whole night watching a horror movie in the living and snatching each other pillows too! it was scary to see that scary woman face crawling in the tv screen. but the movie is actually crap la. we spent the whole time together until 7 am in the morning the next day! its great to joke around after a really really long time. hugging her was the best thing ever; i swear. she was the greatest smelly thing that i loved since 5 years ago. she was there when i needed her and be there to hold on if i really have to cancel our plan at the very last min, the true friend who understand what i'm going through right now. been busy with work and she know that i need time on my own as well. she never fails to help me out. i miss my hilmi so badly too. i wasn't in the mood to post right now. and thanks to that shorty for making my life difficult now; you totally a pain in the ass friend. sorry.

2009-11-23T22:47:00.002+08:00

I MISS MY NURUL J. AND FARAH P.!

i really miss my good-good-good friends!
its really irritating to plan a real day out with your bunch of friends. right after 11/11/09 i NEVER went out any of my friends at all sey. busy with work and major stuffs. i seriously frustrating and if i were to have only a day off. i totally stay home and rest, Christmas is coming! and what so great about it for me? more working hours? BIG MONEY IS COMING! haha. i wasn't very sure if people around is getting better with this kind of awkward attitude of mine towards them now. people change in awhile, better or worst. i don't know about myself. and sister got the same malay teacher as mine during i was in primary school. that teacher is a ______ woman but teaches good malay language. hoepfully she's doing better then me. please don't follow my bad side ok sister. i love you!

2009-10-30T03:21:00.002+08:00

FINALLY MATHS IS OVER

if im not going to pass my maths, i dont know what to say!
habis lar aqilah!

please make me pass; PLEASE!

2009-10-22T23:42:00.002+08:00

hilmi ♥
thanks for your time darling. love you!

2009-10-10T21:41:00.001+08:00

you were the one who brought me up since i was young. so young even you were the one who taught me how to walk, taught me how to talk, feed me with the food, make me sleep and send me to school. and suddenly, you left me in this world without you anymore when i was only seven young old. i thought you just gonna leave me just for awhile.

i : "papa, when will mummy come back? how long she'll be staying in the hospital?"
papa: "she's not coming back."

i waited for so long, which makes me wonder sometimes why are we not visiting you in the hospital. instead somewhere else. as days goes by, it makes me understand why you will never come back. its been ten years now since you left us. after you left for 4 years, i got a sister. finally. she's adorable. but just so sad, she can't see you or touch you. or more worst she'll never feel your love like how i did. how i wish i could turn back time and understand that you'll leave us soon and by then i want to spend my time with you wisely. you left me when i was really young, but that doesn't mean that forgot you. i remember you in everyways. everyday we met, we got so many good memories. and even more wishes for us to make it true. you want to see me to be a succesful girl in future to come. but i want to share it with you. i really miss those days where we really got the whole time together. i miss eating prata with you. i reall y miss you so much nenek! i never felt hari raya with you. i was so young to knw hari raya back then. but this year i wished you here. on the first day, grandpa really reminds me of you! he is still here with us. i'll take care of him liked you takecare of me. some nights i dreamt about you, i t just makes me miss you more.

i miss you so much
i miss kissing you
i miss hugging you
i miss smelling you
i miss smelling your hair
i miss you feeding me eat
i miss you sending me to school
i miss seeing you smile
i miss hearing your laughter
i miss you kissing me
i miss sleeping with you
i miss following you to the wet market
i miss calling you mummy
i miss you nagging
i miss going out with you
i miss you getting ready for me to school
i miss your cooking
seriously, i miss you so badly. i want you to be here now.i want to hug you! its only wishes.

2009-10-06T23:32:00.005+08:00

time: 3 pm

Fana: starbucks?
Me: AGAIN?!?! no thanks. mineral water?
Fana: Your head! boringg. something better?
Me: Eh yesterday i went to buy a school bag for someone, that man didn't gave me receipt you know! i was suppose to get $10 dollar voucher!
Fana: any better idea to think of somewhere to drink? im talking. helloo!
Me: ouh no! see you soon in 3 minutes!
* run to the store immediately*
Fana: oiiiii! AQILAHHHHHHH!

i didn't intend to leave you behind la. but seriously, my mind was on you somehow. but i dont know why im lost. :D so sorry la ok! finally i manage to get the voucher. i wasn't much lar. he might thought im really kiasu. my plan was not to pay him a visit and get the $10 voucher. its just a coincidence for me to be there. so i pay him a visit la. why not?! its not sinful

Me: excuse me, do you remember me? i bought the navy plain beg here. the last piece? yesterday?
The man: ouh yar i remember. can i help?
*i explain myself; clearly i suppose!*
The man: my machine is down, sorry! i can give you the voucher now. dont worry
Me: thanks :D

why would i worry if i don't receive the voucher. its just the receipt is important. if it need to be exchange or something la cik abang. lucky you, for remebering me, or else i wont harm you either. im not a bad girl! :D take care tau!

HEY FANA;
didnt want to leave you behind. even almost two hours spent with you is pretty much happy for me. thanks for accompany me here and there today and for the treats too. i wanted you to have much fun later on so didn't want to take up all of your energy. after all, having ice milo was much more better. then having on some espensive drink instead. once in awhile its ok la kn. we'll have them son of course, i promise you! how i wish i could see you turning into a punk rock tonight for your annual dinner and dance. haha. hope you have fun for the whole of today. and im sorry for being so busy, and got no time for you. insyallah, soon ok. you dont have to think too much about me. you can always come and visit me at home whenever you're free. im 24/7 at home from now on. i really miss you too!

to zee:
sorry that i can't make it for study tomorrow. i hope you understand. and good luck in advance for your major exams too! and i won't remind you of the days left again. my apology! keep working hard dear. i know you can do better! we'll see each other soon! if you want to have a study date again, you can always ask me. i'll try to make time for it. takecare! and Good Luck to You ZEEEEEEEEEEEEE! <3

2009-10-05T00:09:00.001+08:00

after two years; i got a new baby now. im glad to have one again which is hug-able and can make me feel better at the time.but i wonder why is she different? only now i realise that its with costume. good la, can her warm all the time. she just came back from the north pole, no wonder la!

hilmi, thanks! :D

2009-10-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

♥HAPPY 51ST MONTHSARY TO US HILMI HASSAN!♥

again we both manage to have another monthsary. as the days keep coming i can't wait for our monthsary to come. the longer we stay together. monthsary still as normal as the other days. its just the same. but i dont know why i love every 2nd of the month. our monthsary keep increasing! as a suprise, i'll treat you magnum for 51st monthsary ok hilmi? :D

hilmi,
thank you, for being there for me all the time
thank you, for your time. those precious moments!
thank you, for treating my so well like a princess
thank you, for your amazing patience
thank you, for making me feel ever so special.
AND THANK YOU FOR LOVING THIS FAT GIRL FOR WHO SHE IS.
you always show how much you love this fat girl with your amazing patience that i don't think i can tolerate that much. only you who can. you always been the best!
THE BEST OF THE BEST! :D
and hilmi, do you think this fat girl love you too?
Go find out!

2009-10-01T23:40:00.004+08:00

last time i watch this with my boyfriend, today i watch with my mum.
hilmi you should feel something when you watched this movie. i don't know why i cried.
hilmi, THANKS!

2009-09-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

my 10 recent activies was:

(1) i meet amalinah, last two or three weeks ago. we had fun in vivo city! i swear we should go out again some day or even better study together. you can come over my place for study. dont worry im fine with that. and please dont janji bedek lagi ok!

(2) i didn't go school for quiet some times! and i miss nurul and liyana so much now! we will meet each other soon for study date ok. i promise!

(3) met zee for another study date at starbucks! which is really boring to study maths the whole day! it is really killing me! even zee know how stress am i doing with maths.

(4) met hilmi after that, had heavy dinner and delicious ice-cream treat frm him. WONDERFUL! i had great time with you after a tiring day!

(5) met fana for a warm hug and a cup of hot chocolate at my place as we got alots of things to share like BAD and GOOD news. by doing this its makes our friendship get better and closer. im straight and i won't marry you fana. don't worry. i love you in the other ways! i love you so much!

(6) got a new and colourful tagboard in my burlybuswoman blog!

(7) im so busy with studies. with mr______ and mr hilmi hassan. mr hilmi is my maths teacher for the past four years. he have done a great job and nagging at me to pass my maths papers! which is coming soon! very soon!

(8) i thought i got a date with fana again, but cancelled! STUDY. STUDY.STUDY

(9) mr hilmi came over again this week for another maths tuition! thanks you! after that we watched 'the proposal' half way! =.= thanks hilmi for coming! i need to pass maths?! HAHA. OK!

(10) ANOTHER TUITION WITH BOTH TEACHERS! ALL I DID WAS STUDY AND STUDY AND STUDY FOR O'S! its really killing me; i cant enjoy anymore. how sad!

2009-09-15T23:12:00.005+08:00

major exams are coming soon. am i well prepared? i guess not. theres plenty of this i need to study. i've been busy with school and studies and i'll get tired easily after i reached home. and when morning comes, i'll be lazy for school as per normal. but seriously not now. im just left with a month and each seconds count. i'll get very restless when it comes to O's. how many hours im left with? i can't be sleeping at the times and slack too much. but i guess i really improve but not much. i admit. but its a major change to me. and thanks to my dearest parents, aunties and boyfriend for the greatest support. whenever they nag, it shows they're concern. and even i realised im so paranoid with everything lately, but i've always been. but xtra paranoid lately. nothing seems good. i've been really busy and i even got no time for myself. being busy is always best. keep yourself accompany with things you enjoy to do, but on study its somehow gettin my interest. 95%? just get too tired every night which get me irritated sometimes. as my brain cell are dead after 3 am! no point studying. better sleep! no point sleep i guess; as i won't get enough sleep after all and will get grumpy the whole time.

I MISS HILMI DARLING

I MISS FANA SAYANG

and i miss my good friends too! [too many to mention]

2009-09-12T22:39:00.005+08:00

finally i manage to add this new friend into my msn account. it is really terrible communicating through facebook. which deliver late msges! its almost driving me crazy. but fortunately i didnt. we had great time chatting; seriously. i just gonna love you too amal! :D a new friend of mine. who cant wait to meet up! you're the best too!

To Dearest Natasha;

it was suppose to be a great news that you are coming back from canada. but instead you're not. i wonder why. things might change and make you sad but you'll never regret coming back. hopefully. keep praying and i will too. praying the best for you. it just wont change that you're sad. you're too far away for me to hug. and its not impossible for me making you feel much better. and im glad that im much of the help. and its lucky of you to have me too. keep going till the end and soon u'll be safe and sound. it all just need a little bit of happiness. enjoy ur day in canada while you can dear. i want to visit canada too if i can. i just miss you so much. miss those days where we can meet each other everyday like we used too. we are all grown up now. TAKECARE! buy me something from canada! HAHAH!
I LOVE YOU NATASHA!
and remember the song of yours? the purple girl thingy! :D

2009-09-02T01:04:00.002+08:00

its a wonderful relationship with you boyfriend. i enjoy every moment we spent together. no regrets! i love you now and i will keep loving you ok. insyallah. every 2nd of the month we turn a month older but now in the month of september i wanna wish you HAPPY 50TH MONTHSARY!

2009-08-30T04:43:00.003+08:00

i enjoyed my whole night with you. we spent the whole night together until 4.30 am
i just love you so much dear sister!
i LOVE you! muah!

2009-08-29T02:37:00.001+08:00

TOTAL DISASTER AT FIRST

As promised, met fana at the nearest bus stop. soon after the bus came with plenty of seats. kiasu singaporean including me and fana were trying to get ourselfs in front; BUT as i was searching for my wallet, dearest fana was in the bus already. i took few steps back and still searching while the bus driver waiting for me. finally i decided to left her and the empty bus and make my way home. i believe i left my wallet somewhere which i thought its already in my bag! somewhere in my room if not in my bag. this is not the first time i left my wallet somewhere; im soooo used to it. being silly all the time. retartedly making my way home just to take my wallet and left fana in the bus alone! im soooo sorry dear. i'll make sure that won't happend again. i know fana don't mind. she know me too well kn sayang? HAHA! thats why i loveeeee youuu sooo muchhh!

im having science prelim paper today too. since im left my wallet somewhere. everything as planned turned out bad! im 30 mins late for the paper. but no matter what i manage to sit for the paper. i guess i screwed up my science paper super badly. i studied so hard but im so sleepy during the paper. i only manage to seep for 60 mins. =.=
"i must start studying now, like 10000 times harder!" hilmi trust me this time ok. HAHA! i'll make sure this really happend.

evening was super great! went geylang serai with boyf and break fast together by the road. pathetic i know. but the streets were all crowded and hawker centers are all full. we both left with no choice. did some window shopping and decided to wear _____ this year together. :D :D :D we wore grey last year. something better this year perhaps. we didn't had great dinner earlier; we only break fast with chicken wings each and i dont knw what food is that we had. so we had dinner before we left. at 2245 home sweet home! journey home was a disaster too! I HAD SOOOO MUCH FUN WITH YOU DEAR! another break fast together soon ok?

<3

2009-08-25T00:19:00.004+08:00

MALAY WAS SOMEHOW NOT FINE; ENGLISH IS TOMORROW.

TO:________

fana: imysm
hilmi: imy more.
zee: thank you for your help dear
afiq: happy birthday boy!
farah: nice pictures; had fun with you tonight
ashraff: i saw you in bus just now!
marcus: hello, didnt saw you too today!
nurul: you did well for the paper just now. think positive
lily ween: imy like crazy too twin!
mum: ilysm
dad: ilysmtoo!
dearest aunties: ilysm!

and to all: HAPPY FASTING!

:D :D :D

2009-08-22T20:09:00.001+08:00

everything seems to drive my crazy with the is internet lacking, blogger still being crazy fcuking dumbass which i cant upload pictures and even blog properly. like when i got so many things to blog! and best, i LOST my bloody orange thumbdrive which contains all my pics with my secondary GFs and BFs and and and i couldn't login to my email and check those emails. now i've got 64 unread emails! pls let me read those! i got things to reply about! everything please get better the next day! and pls make me find my thumbdrive by tomorrow! i just want to see all those pictures and upload them on facebook. and i hate facebook too; sometimes. blogger has spread his illness to facebook and msn! my friends having this masalah too! what telah jadi ne?! pls lar. im super angry now. serios shit! :D
GET WELL INTERNET! MSN AND BLOGGER!
facebook is getting better but sometimes giving me shit too!
and dearest thumbdrive pls appear next me when i woke up early in the morning tomorrow pls.
EVERYTHING STOP GIVING ME SHIT CANNNNNNN!

2009-08-12T12:57:00.000+08:00

why is not my blogger not getting well when others are better! you driving my freaking crazy blogger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-07T11:05:00.001+08:00

blogger is seriously sick like hell which i cant even upload pictures. and even i have to post in codes and its really pathetic! please get well soon ok blogger. i miss blogging with pictures so much. :[

2009-08-05T18:25:00.007+08:00

having my bestfriend over all the times is the best moment together. better than spending my time outside. she came over and spent the whole night with me. this wasn't the first time. i had a great and total fun with her. laughing our ass of on each other jokes and tricks. sharing about new friends and no matter what i still find you the best! she know me like no other. ok, hilmi know me best too. but sice from secondary one we've together. even though in lower secondary we're in a bump boat friendship at first. and now moving steady and keep going straight up ahead. now hoping too much in our friendship. but i hope we can make it last longggg and longerrr. i'll continue to support you in everything. i just love you in any ways. you cheered me up too much last night. dont make me have a great stomach cramps after laughing the whole night with you.

bestfriend: I JUST LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH!

2009-07-21T23:25:00.003+08:00

ive been busy with school lately and i guess i cant be online so often nowdays. mid-years result is really such a major dissapointment for my love ones. i do need to work hard for another 90 plus days. im counting down the days for the major paper!

97 more days to maths paper 1
98 more days to maths paper 2

GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-09T20:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 48TH MONTHS TO US BOTH!

its was actually on the 2nd july this year we both turned 4 yrs old in this wonderful relationship. due to busyness and no time. i ve to dely my post for this wonderful day. its been a great experience to be having a boyfriend like you and in relationship. we've been through so much together and even seeing different expression in each other. how happy you are or how sad you are. and even the best part is seeing you being angry, that the best face expression ever....
so natural of you. no word can describe how fierce can YOU be. worst than a hungry lion? HAHA! maybe. well, its wonderful to think back how we first met during NDP05 , from where i just started in secondary school until i graduated from the same school. thats where we knew each other. funny-funny things happended when we first wanted to get to know each other. i dont have to tell but to think back its really really hilarious and it make us shy sometimes when we talked about it nowdays. even walking at a very far distance from you is something different and even sometimes our skin touches we felt awkward. HAHA! ouh well i dont wanna share much but the most important thing is i loveeee you !
and stop hanky panky-ing around or fooling around. better not ok! hope we can have another 2nd july next year together again.

hilmi,

happy anniversary to us. well like i said " happy start" no happy ending for now. we got a very very longgggggg way to go! we both got dreams to achieve. and pls dont stop teaching me maths even how weak i am. dont give up. i got a tuition teacher in school already but if i need help can i count on you? we'll get better in years to come ok. and you're the best than THAT best. you know, i know :}i dont need your money to make me feel happy. even being the best you had make me happy for the past 4 yrs. and dont forget to keep praying for me passing my o lvls. and ilysm.

♥♥♥

2009-07-08T20:21:00.000+08:00

ouh gosh, boyf spotted my error on my previous post. i swear that part is sucky. well lets stop talking about studies. im bored. a thousands millions sorry to my team mates for not coming down training lately as i miss playing hockey. i was super busy with school and plans. i'll TRY to come down for training soon and keep it constant as im abit tired sometimes and that why it makes me lazy to come down. well i dont think i might be on time for the friendly next week as im having MT oral on that same day. i love to come down early and enjoy the sun, warm up together with the team. hopefully i can make it there on time. pray hard for that and i cn come down and play the game too. and pls dont make anybody slip on the pitch as the pitch is really really slippery. the hockey match is what im thinking about the whole day like..

1. are they gonna cancel the game at the last min AGAIN?!
2. how good are they?
3. can i make on time for the game?
4. what if im the last person?( ouh no, please! make me the 3rd one! pls! aminnnn..!)
5.how long can i stay for the game? (30 mins?!)

im asking qns to myself which i can't even ans. i'll pray hard that i CAN come for the game and be early. its been ages that i played games. the last game was during holiday and i can't make it as i got school =.=
and i knw my english sucks!

2009-07-07T23:44:00.006+08:00

1. still having fever
2. having throat infection which is killing me
3. have scince practical tomorrow -.-
4. i miss my dearest fana sooo muchh!
5. i wanna meet my dearest fana very soon!
6. i wanna BF very soon too
7. i wanna have macdonald for breakfast, PLEASE!

i miss my dearest fana so badly. its been awhile that we met and talk on the phone. miss those days where we have to wake each other up for school and always been absent for school together without planning. its all coinsidence. we have alot of common thing together. and even miss sharing food in the same plate as you, sharing saliva together. how lesbian can we be? ouh well, i'll be here 24/7 when you need me ok . we'll see each other very soon and thats for sure! ily and tats for sure too!

and still, i havent recover from fever which i had for the past 5 days, and its making me more sick. with the throat infection it making me feel worst then ever. i even bought things to make me feel better, i guess its not helping. still have to go school tomorrow. can i not go? please! bt i wanna be a good girl so i have to. stop skipping of classes aqilah. you had enough of free times and now i need to study myself out. i really need too. someone pls heal me.

2009-06-30T23:02:00.002+08:00

i had study date with zee today. she's a great company. we both had fun together. she studied chemistry while im struggling in maths. the picture above, i look suck on it ok i swear. ignore my face. well zee seems nice and wonderful. nice having a study partner like you. we should go hang out or study together again sometime. can i count on you? well. its nice meeting you today after all. see you soon!

2009-06-27T21:44:00.004+08:00

As usual, i was so eager for a friendly game this morning. mentally and physically prepared for the game. i was too tired last night. had an early night though. woke up at 8 when i suppose to meet my friends at 7.15am somewhere jurong east MRT. was so panic and called farah up...

ringringgggg...ringg..ringringgggg....

AQILAH: helloooo farah ada? * in a panic kinda voice*
Farah mummy: Adekkk! bagun ada telephone ne..!
AQILAH:[aqilah da panic kejap, takot farah takde atau kejut org pagi-pagi]
Farah mummy: kejap...
Farah: hello, aqilah? nari tkde hockey. hockey cancel.
AQILAH: EH?! okla. buang masa jer panic-panic. k lar sambung tidoe. bye
Farah: bye.

Last minute info, almk! i dont like tis sey. was so eager for everything already. even ready to go for game. at last game was cancel. HAIYOOOO!

2009-06-26T00:40:00.003+08:00

HAHA! i got almost all of my results and its suck totally! im only left with biology. why bother to wait, i still screwed up the whole paper aloready. i swear i really really need to buck up and study hard now. counting down the days to the big big day. like major big day. im so totall not prepare for it. keep having fun. why still?! nomore hanky-panky!

farewell readers!

2009-06-24T00:44:00.007+08:00

i was a big bang movie! i swear, boyf was so excited for the movie until we both are being super early for the movie. the first one to arrive. others were still home and even in thier home area

-____-

finally ouh finally somebody is here and everyone la! still waiting.. and guess what? wei mean boyf and me were the first one to enter to hall; u know typical singaporean. i mean my boyf is. heh! ouh btw i was my first outing with the others girls and guys.it was great i guess for the first outing. i'll get better in future to come. had picture taking but i look funny and feel super awkward in those pictures. i swear i really do. had a great great day out today. and and i didnt go school today. too lazy!

:D :D :D
AND I SWEAR, NO MORE SKIPPING OF SCHOOL!

2009-06-12T20:28:00.001+08:00

Finally like finally ive ended my mid-yr exms now. but only have a week break tats bad really bad.

this is how my paper goes:

4th june: science MCQ and physics paper, i screwed up badly for theory paper like major but did well for MCQ!

5th june: biology theory paper! i went blank went i enter the exm room. like totally BLANK! like you knw screwed up my this science paper again! wth!

9th june: maths paper 1! omg i swear i only can do half of the paper. i was super hard like 1235689562 harder than i expected. i studied really damn hard for my maths ok! i really do!

10th june: finally its a relief to have an easier paper that the day before that. i didnt struggle alot to finish the wholw paper. its better than paper 1 i swear! everybody agree on that ok!

& finally 12 june: my humanities paper(geog and ss) HAH! ss was easy bt not for geog. all i can sae is didnt prepare well for geog but i do for ss! :D

ouh my im putting myself in a very very bad position now. which i gonna get bad bad bad results for mid-yr! HELPPP!

&& PHEW no need to study for a week! hoorayy!

2009-06-02T22:44:00.003+08:00

Exams paper: English paper 1 and 2
Comment: Manageble!
:D

2009-05-28T23:22:00.003+08:00

why am i so out of energy lately? totally out of energy. like 0%! school been tiring for me. got my malay result. haha shithead. i knw aqilah you cn do far more better than this. 3 more days. im counting down the days which im gonna sit for my first o lvl paper. better do better now and clear one subject for the end of the year exms which i cn concentrate more on my other weak subjects.

didnt expect someone to msg and inform me the time for sat gig. thanks my dearest new friend. didnt know if mum allow me to go. but im still hoping to see you. still, gonna be awkward to hang around with you.but sooner or later we will still will

half way studying for malay. my eyes couldn't bear anymore. took 30mins of sleep. for the first 5 min, it was alright sleeping on my study desk. after that i gave up and went down to sleep UNDER my study table. woke up 30 mins later than i planned. it was super hillarious thinking that im able to sleep anywhere when im super tired and sleepy even under the table will do. shameless me.

and to you, its not that i dont want to hang arnd with you again, its just that ur attitude pissed me off.

2009-05-23T20:18:00.002+08:00

bio lesson was cancelled. and tq so much. god knw im so tired after 5 days of school. malay mid-year paper is coming. hopefully im doing my best and not trying to hope too high. finally, im worn out baby, goodnight!

2009-05-22T23:39:00.002+08:00

brainstroming today in school. had bio for the first period and im all tired after 1045. 0% energy. bio was extremely irritating with the two guys were sing some irritating songs and tat fool keep asking like major STUPID qns. like hello mr, you dont have to knw why the white blood cells is white in colour because in overall that qn wont be asked in O lvl. like never. because it is a stupid qn! so pls stop being funny when ure even dont knw how to be funny and at the wrong timing. ure old enough to think. so please dont be an irritaing specimen in future again. ok?

and im out of energy for maths. and the best thing is today we're having trigo test. wth! i only manage to complete 6 questions out of 8! its time to speed up ms aqilah. pls start now. after school bestfriend came over and hang out. tired but still make some time for her. its was fun after all. gossiping. sharing stories and watched movie. she's a changed young lady who is now very noisy, active && even lady-like now. ily.

im schooling again tomorrow. something to sacrifice for to get a good grade.

2009-05-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

yes finally i manage to relief myself with hockey. ouh and the sad thing is this will be the last training for the season. not until 12 june i can resume with my usual schedule. training was super exhausting. i swear! haha. didnt went for english in the morning. and yes im glad tat kris won this season. and i swear im all stress up by ss and geo. tooooo muchhh to study for mid-yr. and o lvl malay are in two weeks. and ouh my ppr will be held in expo, i wonder how's the atmosphere like. totally awesome! early morning, shit happended! cant wait for weekend to come. totally cant wait.

and darling, IMY! :(

2009-05-20T23:22:00.002+08:00

bio practical todae. amazingly i manage to finished it on my own and not on time bt earlier. todae lab pract is about food test. on strach, fats, protein and sugar. i had fun play with egg white. i swear. ouh nothing to be great about and im super tired. like damn damn tired. thinking of going training tomorrow. hopefully i will.

goodnight and hilmi, saya rindu sama kamu lar!
:(

2009-05-19T23:52:00.002+08:00

shithead. didnt came school taday. well done. i got practical tomorrow. and its bio, tat teacher again =.= goodness pls make time fly fast. cant wait for tomorrow to be over. thank you! ans once again shithead aqilah. maths test todae. u didnt came. again tomorrow maths test. dearest aqilah pls study 100 times harder then wad ure doing now. pls for god sake. and O lvl malay are in 2 freaking weeks. so better get prepare very very soon!

2009-05-18T23:24:00.003+08:00

i swear i had soo much fun in school today only for malay and english was like "=.=" omg someone pls wake me up! its so damn boring. it's all about newspapers, formal letter and blah blah blah.. and malay was AWESOME!!! hakim so irritated by this hip-hop guy reading all those loveable phrases for compo. its super hillarious. i got stomach cramps due to laughing toooo much! and finally tat hip-hop guy was being irritated by hakim and he super pissed on just moved 2 row frm the back and pluck in his earpiece and turned the vol to the maximum. i swaer frm where am i, i could hear tat _______ song. tats super not my type hip-hop! and my dearest liyana find me a werido todae. kinda super hypo. ate too much chocolate early in the morning? ouh no. trying to lose weight la darling. and yes! i loveee you tooooo much!

i swear i didnt went home straight. catch a star trek with botfriend. at tat moment i was 99.9% sleepy and i couldnt deny it! when show started i ALMOST fall aslepp, bt i couldn't! ada satu mat ne kept waking me up. ouh maklum la duit dia, tknk nk waste kn. in a very noisy place i still cn sleep! ouh goodness tats you aqilah!

tq bf!
i♥you!

2009-05-13T17:37:00.000+08:00

SHIT happend you see. not all the time everything will go right as it planned. it really sucks today. hopefully thing swill get better when you're back in you hometown. tired as it is. schooling tomorrow as usual. no holiday for me. and tats sucks too. but it doesn't matter. what matters now is that, i really did my job well dont come and show me attitude :D

2009-05-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

i swear i dont knw anything about rock ledgend. today will be the first and the last time in gonna play. so, hilmi pls take note that you will have to continue playing rock ledgend behalf of me. thank you eh hilmi. ouh my goodness, bio lesson was superb boring. the teacher was like

GOMES: " Aqilah and liyana you two uh better stop talking. dont waste ur parents money!"

AQILAH: ouh ok. i wont. =.=

LIYANA: OUUUHHHH ic =.=. ure so lame. and ur class are very boring!

AQILAH: HAHA! ok stop( continue to our talking)

few mins later.....

GOMES: YOU TWO GIRLS! didnt i just reminded to not to talk.

AQILAH: ignore him. ok stp talking!

so tats how boring my bio lesson. bt i do learn somethings. abt vein? ouh stop the crap bt finally i did manage my time looking after my parents and met my dearest friend, raifana. which we bought Mc Cafe. i swear it sucks! white chocolate! i gt stomachache after drinking tat wonderful icy frappe! and religious class was better than the previous lesson, which make me bored and the miracle thing is i enjoy the wasting time lesson =.=

&&& finally i met my nurul cinta after 3 wks. and she's busy with school which makes me very sad. and pls go out very soon!

2009-04-28T12:18:00.002+08:00

ended school super early todae.

school was okay. nothing much.

didnt saw her today, just wanted to say hi after those msges.

but too bad it wasnt your day.

ouh my physics tomorrow!

S__!

im away tonight, hope to see you soon!

2009-04-22T22:08:00.004+08:00

es! waited for 2 hours for our ~~stupid~~ bio pract lesson.

i swear its a waste of time. can i pls change my time slot?

anything will do as long as its not wasting my time waiting

. its precious you knw.

ouh well, practical was alright i guess as me and my dearest lab partnern was behaving like science geeks! and racheal was standing still and only shook her head.

:D its fun to be my lab partner you knw. but sorry only for bio.

physics?! i'm bored. zzzzzzzz!

we even took pictures!

That's the mouth of a Honey Bee

Paramaecium cells.

Red Blood Cells.

2009-04-14T23:04:00.002+08:00

CAME SCHOOL AND DIDNT NOTHING

BUT STUDY. STUDY. STUDY!

DAMN BORED!

goodbye love~!

boyfriend!

2009-04-01T00:26:00.001+08:00

HELLO MR!

thanks for evrything alright

like i said ure the best BOYFRIEND ever

;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

and like what i promised "COOKIES!"

ok very soon ok.

in 3 weeks time i will see you ok. GDNIGHT!

2009-03-22T22:41:00.003+08:00

i swear i need ____ to ___ on my bloody stupid MSN account which i ____ my_________

thanks alot uh eh . im so freaking pissed off now ok. trying to ______ my stupid _____ & ______! i swear i really cannot get over it until now. its been almost a month! and to my dearest MSN account: you're really drive me crazy!

2009-03-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

ouh since you're leaving

im gonna post something about you for the very first time

i first met you 03 january 2005 until now we're friends

not until tomorrow when you're gonna leave us all behind.

hopefully you gonna change what you suppose to change NORHISHAM

GOODBYE

and we all gonna miss you so take care!

2008-12-07T00:59:00.001+08:00

finally i manage to talk to my dearest BF again

wahhh! imy like hell sey i tell you

&& i got friendster! something to be proud of?!

btw, thanks love for everything!

ILY GOATIE!

2008-11-18T02:07:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU LOVE FOR THE ROSE!

i love you so muchhhhh!

fun talking with your friend; Ahmad

2008-11-10T00:33:00.003+08:00

you dont love me like you do before.. what happened..

ever since last week u've been acting strangely..

as in u desperately want me out of your life.. not even a whisper from me..

it's like you want to love someone else..

or worst come to worst you have already like someone else..

i still love you honey munchy.. i still want you..

it was so sweet to see your face while you sleep..

it's the first..

but it maybe nothing special to you.. i want you to love like you used to..

coz i want to love you like never before..

i've realised it since my previous mistake which was almost a year ago..

ive loved u since.. n i hope you realise it.. i'm just so afraid to let you go..

with you around guys there's no telling what will happen.. in this life you cant trust anyone..

even me.. n i know u dun trust me this whole year..

but i dun mind..

i just want you to love me.. n we'll ove on our lives together as a couple..

that's my dream..

your dream was to play for nationals..

and my dream is to be with you like there is no end..

2008-10-31T23:45:00.003+08:00

its wonderful to see other people is having fun with their BF this holiday

Bf entertaining them

so sad that dont happend to me

NOT NOW!

and some went to watch HSM3 with thier Bf too

feel like crying to see others are happy with their bf but not me

maybe one day

MAYBEE!

:'(

its ok maybe i'll have fun with my friends soon!

imissfauzi!

imissfana!

imissaishah!

imisszahirah!

imissfiza!

imissuma!

imissmelanie!

imissjai!

imissrauf!

imissroy!

imissmunnirah!

imisshisham!

imisshadi?!

OUH NO!

IMISSSCHOOL!

IMISSMRKONG!

IMISSMDMROSNAH!

ouh my, i miss doing maths.

starting working in 14 hrs time!

EXCITED!

2008-10-27T01:27:00.000+08:00

AM I BORED ENOUGH?

I DONT KNOW!

I SWEAR I DONT KNOW!

2008-10-26T01:17:00.002+08:00

ouh finally,

THEBODYSHOP; is my part-time job time

being attached at TB!

i swear i dont knw how to spell tb

its short form for me ;D

LOVELY!

i wonder how is my first day is gonna be like?

wonderful?

awesome?

best?

ok?

fun?

sucks?

ok result will be out sat night.

hopefully i wont be too tired to post

but one thing for sure, i'll keep hilmi update

INSYALLAH, TK JANJI!

klau situation kiter berdua baek lar ok

but hilmi sayang, tlg jgn maki-maki.

please.

u knw that kn

ty!

2008-10-21T00:41:00.004+08:00

BOYFRIEND!

i knw my BF is sleeping now

you're very very tired aren't you?

ok now you continue sleeping ok!

insyallah i wont disturb you

not calling tonight.

its ok, i understand ok sayang!

IMY ALREADY!

ILY!

2008-10-19T01:52:00.001+08:00

i swear i got alot of things to share.

but i swear not todae.

im super duper lazy!

BYE!

ILYBF!

I MISS YOU DEAR!

2008-10-13T01:09:00.011+08:00

When Your Gone - Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
[when i thought i can move on without you]
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
[when u left me, i thought i could cry on someone else shoulder.. bt i cant, all i think about is YOU! HILMI!!!]
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
[waiting for you to come back bt u didnt, its been almost 2 weeks when we didnt talk. and im starting to miss you, i felt its like 20 yrs that we didnt talk.. thats how much i miss you]
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
[you NVR slept on my bed for sure. HAHA! bt the school is the replacement. the mini takraw place is where im gonna look for you and kept thinking about you]

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
[Like i said, when u walk away i thought u'll come back. bt u nvr did.. i count every second on the clock that ticks, waiting for you to msg me, bt u didnt]
Do you see how much I need you right now
[And now do u see how much i love you at that time, bt u take advantage of me, you thought by doing this my love for you will nvr die. bt look again hilmi, i guess you knw if i still love u or not]

When you're gone
[Will you leave me alone again one day? wad if it happend again? when you're really gone?]The pieces of my heart are missing you
[No matter how i feel for you, i'll still miss you somehow.miss you really badly, even if i hate you]
When you're gone
[You've gone twice hilmi]
The face I came to know is missing too
[I never thought that u'll really leaving me one day, and the face that i usually seen is missing now, FOR REAL!]
When you're gone
[Will you be gone again? leave me along again? will you?]
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
[the sweets words and mushy words got me through the day, but does it make it ok? unless you change for the better]
I miss you
[I MISS YOU, and thats REAL! im not a liar like you]

I've never felt this way before
[ i NEVER felt that lonely before, that hurt before and that sad before.. u look down on me.. that down hilmi.. so down..]
Everything that I do reminds me of you
[i guess u knw wad it means, the notebook? the school? ALOT of things remind me of you. i just can spell it out. its too muchh. i knw u knw wad i mean]
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
[no the cloths lie on the floor, bt the cloths u wear. does it really mean something to you or so much to you?]
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
[the cinderella perfume? its reminds me of you. and you have your own smell and i love it. and i love the things that you do too..]
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
[when you walk away, im waiting for you to come back. bt will you one day if u leave again?]
Do you see how much I need you right now
[ do u really see how much i need you that time? how much i love you? bt how u repay my love? by lying to me again and again?]

We were made for each other
[we really made for each other that time.bt now? keep on praying if you want it to be real. pray harder!]
Out here forever
[forever? we always said that we'll love each other forever.. bt look now. wad happend?]
I know we were
[i believe if we work on this harder, we will be together forever. INSYALLAH. AMIN!]
All I ever wanted was for you to know
[YES!! I REALLY WANT YOU TO KNOW! THAT BADLY!]
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
[EVERYTHING i do, i do it because of you, because i love you. i do it sincerly. wif my heart and soul. ouh not only that TEARS and SWEAT too!]
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
[its so painful when u left me alone that time, i really need you. bt now? ask yourself. and why?]

...
..
...
..
..

i spent 1 hour on this post. this is the song that i heard when u left me. i just want to share it with you now. its not that i love you at all. ily but like you said.

maybe the new me just dont love you
maybe its all pretend
maybe its not love
maybe its lust

i dont knw. bt believe me. i love you so much before
its hurt to knw that ure keeping secrets frm me and lied to hilmi

:'[

2008-10-12T02:58:00.006+08:00

down the drain!

BOOHOO!

im swear im gonna miss you like hell.

its been a long time since we _________________.

i hope u feel the same too

theres no turing back

hopefully, we'll see each other soon

its hurt to sae goodbye.

but do we have a choice?

our 4 yrs in CCKSS is now over

i promise i'll bring along our memories together when i fly up high

not a part of you i'll forget or leave it behind

i cherish every moment together.

you and i.

continue to pray for me and i will too

no last word from us both, bt i believe there is somewhere deep down inside

i treasure you like i nvr did. but its time to let go..

we thought we already did, long ago

bt i doubt we have. very deep down inside we know if we already have or havent.

its onlybetween yourself.

i dont know how u felt all this long bt i knw theres something special between us.

i believe that we havent forget each other.

i dont need you to see me cry, to make me feel great

but deep down am i crying?

what if your instinct tells you that i am. believe it.

its not easy to make someone cry for you.

if she/he does it mean she/he love you.

so am i saeing that i love you?

i dont knw either. but god does

a simple gift from you that i got long ago.

something to keep. simple yet special

and lastly, im gonna miss you friend!

2008-10-11T02:07:00.002+08:00

Status: SUPER SLEEPY!

Place of blogging: JB, aunty place

*no picture to post, i swear SOON!

Its been a long time since i've been blogging

i swear im starting to miss my classmates and those naggy teachers bt NOT my best bf

i swear i cried alot alot alot alot alot!!!!!

im gonna miss my secondary school life, I SWEAR!

that school where i met my dearest annoying BF

and i dont have to wake up early in the morning for school anymore until january next year

hopefully i'll get to work in body shop ok?

pray hard for me ok dear?

i promise i'll post plenty of photo soon ok.

imissyoufriends!

IMISSYOUBF!

2008-09-24T02:04:00.002+08:00

i LOVE this girl.

dearly aqilah please don't ignore me like that again. cause it sucked fullstop

well it's been soooo soooo sooo x 8927746542 +7682 longgggg since i've seen you.

lets all pray u good luck for ur upcoming exams and also the aftermath of that which

you will spend most of ur time watching over my nose hair.. hehe.. ^^

2008-09-22T03:38:00.003+08:00

maybe its really over between us

i dont knw

only god knows how much i ever love you

someone who ive loved, lied to me. keep plenty secrets from me
and always tot i will NVR to well in my studies even though in frm NT

i ever loved you so much, bt den you leave me and went to another girl

tat is not something hard to believe is it?

u deleted all my post about you in my blog

its so painful. that was suppose to be our memories togther

our time spent together

how hurt am i towards you, bu you delted those post

honestly, i will nvr love you like i did before yesterdae

its hard to love someone who have hurt me sooo muchh

those post mean something to me

something that i cant get from anybody

not anybody

i wont get the same love like i get from you

only god knows how much i love you

:'(

and how sad am i right now

i promise i wont love you anymore

i'll leave you alone and i promise i wnt get close with you anymore

i dont knw if loving you is my regret

bt one thing for sure, i love you like a million times

and i nvr love someone else like i love you

all the pain. tears. laughter we've share together

maybe nobody will love me like you did

and maybe nobody will sae those harsh words to me like you did or maybe worst than you

nothing can describe how sad am i now.

honestly, i miss your laughter.

talking on the phone with you late at night

2008-09-21T15:54:00.006+08:00

BF,IM SORRY if i tricked you last night bt i knw we both dont enjoy anything last nighti hate last night too..bt i hope our next meeting, it'll all get better okwednesday coming upi want us to celebrate our 3rd year together again. make this the memorable one ok?enjoy our time together.but i cant believe it tat im starting to miss you!i dont want to miss you yet!not now!:(

2008-09-21T15:54:00.004+08:00

EX-BOYFRIEND!

do you still remember the first time we lay our eyes on each other?remember the time that we both like each other?but never thought that we're gonna be together.e-mail me through friendstersubject: ank kambing mkn rumputmessage: hi boleh kiter kenal-kenal? online?klau online boleh bbual. ape-ape msg me at 90760046, msg kene bayar tau..klau online tk payah.remember those days u e-mail me?when i didnt check my friendster for 2-weeks, u were so panicked that i might ignore yousubject:(cant remember!)message: asl tk reply e-mail? tk online?anything msg me k. the best online.still remember those e-mails?i find it very sweet actually;Dim growing up my secondary life wif youfrom sec 1 until now, graduating this yearthe school brings alot of memories to usthe hall( where we both jus came back frm toilet with your friends and mine)the padang ( where we both notice and stare each other)the backyard( that night, u accomapny me and fazree to explore " ghost", it was STUPID!)your 4/6 classroom (when its 1.30, you'll always come and see me, as you're sitting by the door)void-deck( after the preview, we're suppose to go home together, u get changed at the back of the staircase. that was the first time i saw u body! HAHA! & where i always peep on you playing your mini-takraw, HAHA!)no matter where i go in the school, theres always something that makes me think of youits hard to let someone go just like that. its impossible that in relationship couples dont fight.but we do all the time. sometimes the most hurting part is you'll keep your angry for days and tell me vulgarities. who the hell in this world, sae that to your own GF. come on hilmi, i knw nobody is perfect in this world. but do you really have to sae those words? and saeing me a BITCH is really bad enough. someone may leave thier BF after they sae those words. but i guess, im not that type. we've gone through so much.18 september 2005?this date was wen my mum first called you and ask both of us to break-up. since its not the right time yet. but we're still strong. come and continue our relationship until now. honestly, i really cant forget the daes wen you went out wif two girls. making the effort to meet them. more else, hanah. have you ever imagine, you're in my shoe that time? all i did was crying all alone by myself. i thought you'll be there for me now and forever. all stops until u went out wif ramsey and hanah. i nvr feel the love like i did anymore. the first love was the BEST! you really show me that you really care and the best BF ever. but now, maybe the sweet BF. i nvr imagine that we celebrate our 3rd so simple. i was wishing something sweet. ive always wanted that day to come. it did. but not sweet enough. thanks for the effort you've made. being so caring. so loving( sometimes). i used to sae that im really lucky to have you as my BF. but now, am i really lucky to have you? YES I DO! •you really tought me how to fall in love.

•how hurtful is falling in love

•make me learnt how to bake( cheesecake & brownies)

•making sacrifices for your BF/GF

•the support from your BF is really importanti dont knw why im crying while im posting this. im jus so sad by the way u treat me tonight.you dont have to treat someone like that, even though how much to hate them. its hurts alots wen you shouted at me. remember our first arguement? HAHA! its was a cute one. cause you promised me that u'll top-up for me. you buy the card for me. bt end up u use that for yourself. remember? nah.. you wont. thats all left for memories to you. i still have the two poems that you've wrote for me. the birthday card, u ruin it by having your signature scribbled. tears rolling down my eyes thinking all the sweet stuff we've been through together. we fall asleep on the phone once and crying one the phone together. btw, this are one of the 100 sweetest facts for couples in love <3wen>

2008-09-21T15:53:00.001+08:00

i'll miss this Bf of mine when im away for holidays

promise me that you'll post for me every night, for me!PLEASE!i just want to knw hows ur day is like!ok? ok? ok?all im asking for is 3 nights only, for you to postok please dearfavor frm me.dont upset meand when i get back home, i promise i'll msg you!once i reach singapore!ok?dont worry lajust take good care of urself oktell me if any girls msg you!jus help me post for 3 nights!ILY and IMY!

2008-09-21T15:52:00.008+08:00

HEY BFwad happend? you suddenly act differently today..

u didnt msg me last nighti waited soo longg for you sey!

yes i knw ure excited bout your performance todaybt jgn lar SOMBONG sngt smpai mcm neignore i semuaklau you tau ckp i sombongabeh you tu?ignore-ingore i..i really miss you seyi really want to go tat badly, your performance thingyits not that i dont ask my dad and friends..at least im making the effort to askok i knw, i shudnt be proud of thatbut look, if i dont make the affort to askden i deserve to be ignore and everythingafter all i knw, you still have fum with/without me :[

please dont act like tis any further

FRIDAY: BJS SUCKS TO THE CORE! :]

i SWEAR i dont give a f____ damn on u and ur stupid gang"BJS"our last year together this year.and hopefully, i wont ever see u againwe still talk bt no sharing BIG secrets ok!still gossiping, bt not too much!still joke around, bt not to the extend!hockey together as partner, BUT NOT ALWAYS!please dont come near!ITS SO DANGEROUS!after today(friday) ure jus a piece of s___ to me alrighti dont care if ure BJS thingy is there to help/ protect youi SWEAR im not afraidafter all, they are still my friends.i got no problems with them.but we do with YOU!come on, be a GROWN UP!we are all in sec 4 NOT pri 4!BOOHOO to YOU!ouhh and btw, she is NOT meant to be yoursjust find someone else as a REPLACEMENTits been 3 years!HELLO!dont give stupid excuses, its B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T!i seriously dont care wad will happen next to youwall up? HAHA! i hope soo.and i knw tat wont happen, BJS is thereim so " SCARED"!=.=JGN JADI SEORANG PERAMPAS BLEH TK?cn u go and find ur own life?stp ruining mine, while im still enjoying, F____!bestfriend is not someone to come up to and ask " would you be my bestfriend?"=.=THAT IS SO LAME BDH!i nvr ask her that, and she nvr ask me tat too.cause we find it so stupid!bt lets see wads ur next action oki'll pretend that i knw

NOTHING! SEE YOU ON MONDAY LOSER!ROCK ON BJS, SUKERS!DONT COME AND LOOK FOR ME ANY MORE!EVEN IF YOU ARE THE ONLY GIRL GOING OUT WIF THE BJS!OK?!

2008-09-21T15:52:00.005+08:00

please help me, i need you!

BOYFRIEND!
i hope u'll understand how i feel now.it's not that i dont wanna go.but please understant me.dont add the fire on the situationdont you think that ur being unfair?help me along lar!convince that everything will go on smoothly that dayi dont want any fights between us. PLEASEimy so much. i dont knw if u miss me toobt hopefully yes lahonestly, i cant wait for that day to comenk tapi malumcm gitu lar perasaan saya!tapi tkpe. i'll get through it with you ok?;DSatisfied now?! my hair is all black
=.=
after 8 oct the colour will be brown
=.=
btw the black dye will fade soon.its the cheapest dye.
wo mei yo qian!
at least i dye black ok apprecitate that?
;D
ily!
*mcm bdh tau amik gmbr mlm-mlm buta, just to show my hair is blacktapi tkpe.
mataer nyer psl

2008-09-21T15:51:00.003+08:00

IMY YOU BOYFRIEND!

2008-09-21T15:50:00.003+08:00

THE MOST IRRITATING BF!

he's a bit irritating todaySORRY to say that BF, bt you are todaybut no matter what, i love you still;Dklau besok eh? tk tau lag eh..tngok lar mcm mane eh esk..nnti i blang i syg u ke tk ok?IM SICK!very very sick nowi really need to go to school tomorrow no matter what..Racial Harmony sey!i remember 1 year agoi took picture wif husaini during Racial Harmony Daylets see tomorrow kiter amik ke tk ok?i dont think so lada lame sey kiter tk bbuala little bit sadbt thank you eh..about the past.i wonder how are we, if we both still talk nowentah2 kiter jadi mataer!ish! nono! tat wont happend!INSYALLAH THAT WONT HAPPEND!OMG AQILAH!how could you think tat far?!stupid a___!I LOVE MY BF!I REALLY DO!

TAKE CARE BF!

2008-09-21T15:48:00.006+08:00

take care baby!

tuesday morning: Bf leaving for tioman :( BF, you leaving so soon.. and please come back soon oki miss you so much nowplease take good care of yourself!once you're back in singapore, please msg mei swear i dont realise that im changingits not that im being self-centeredbt please understand, for me to get into the club in really difficulti trained hard for that. but look who is being unfair?i trained so hard to get into the club.while melanie and zahirah?NO! THEY DONT WORK HARD FOR THIS!melanie got into the club because school coach told the scc coach that she's a fit playerwhile zahirah she can run fastbut look, althought u're fit and fast doesnt mean that they dont have to work for it(being a gd palyer in scc)they thought they'll be in scc forever. so confident!start missing for training. late for training. they came at 7.15pm onceand coach didnt scold them for that. so after that im starting to prove that i can be a gd player too!so i gt selected for the friendly games, i knw she's upsetbt have think about my feeling too?!she havent!all she think about is her feelings!wen i planned not coming for training during n lvls period, u knw wad she sae?" wah! lazy pig sial you! alah n lvl only! want to be scc palyer but dont want to come training! lazy pig uh you!"eh see! my intension is good! not coming for traing during n lvls period.den biler i ckp " wad?! n lvl wad? study lar. not play""u want to be in scc, MUST COMMIT uh! even study." that was wad melanie told mekepala otak dier lar i must sacrific my study. even my coach said "STUDY COME FIRST! DEN HOCKEY!"see... now look! sape yg tknk commit? she or me? setakat satu game tk dpt select, u trying to show attitute to the team and cluband wed, psl dier n zahirah tknk dtg psl mak dier have to go for interview and zahirah nk lepak(bohong org ckp saket) sanggup tknk dtg training. ok lar melanie is resonable. but zahirah. i ngn munnirah jugak kene jwb!"ouh they got night class in school."one stupid excusedo you think it fair for me and munnirah?! we make the effort to come and zahirah tidak but still we're in the same standard as her. tk fair knOUH PLEASE LA HILMI, STOP BLAMING ME WITHOUT KNOWING THE FACTS RIGHT!i dont care if you dont support me as ur gf in this. bt be fair too! its not that im being so self centered. if i've been self-centered, long ago i da sabo dier about all this la ok. cepat-cepat i nk dier out of the team? but did i buat tu semua? so?! im being nice here la ok!im so disappointed in you lar hilmi !:'(

2008-09-18T01:15:00.011+08:00

HAHA! finally i can draw something.
i think my drawing is AWESOMEE!
;D
but, i find her hair is super unique
tk pernah aku nmpk ada pompan rmbt mcm ne
creative jugak aqilah ne btw.

ouh yess.
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY UMA!
my beloved laughing partner.
we also bully each other, bt still joke around every day.
ily lar GUNDU!
im gonna miss you so muchh!
and i love your hair to, but not the smell ok!
i promise i'll pull ur hair later!
;D

dont tell me i'll miss school soon
during the weekend
i LOVE school

2008-09-13T23:18:00.007+08:00

ouh my i this poeple so muchh!
so badly!
i so meeting deborah soon!
just right after my N lvls, i SWEAR!
but not the other girls. they are far far away!
how? i'll call you pple soon ok.
insyallah! tk janji cause mahal seyy!
Do i miss going to school like the other days?
YES I DO!
those computer lesson?
NOMORE!
:'(
everydae mock exams.

DEBORAH NAH! IMYSM!

I MISS THIS TWIN!

2008-09-11T16:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

ouh he just turn 1 today!

macam tk percaya gitu kn da besar bdk ne.

*7 more days to her birthday!

EOA PRACTICAL PPR!

ok i didnt expect the paper was easy!

i was expecting alot more thing to print and do

total number of prints: 4

best kn!

CPA otak bleh pecah uh fikir psl chart.

jgn ingat nk buat chart tu senang sngt yer!

i swear i miss training so badly!

i'll be back for training soon!

but after 8 oct.. hopefully!

BF,

tk mau marah-marah lar ok

imy, dont worry!

2008-09-04T23:44:00.004+08:00

ouh its been rather tiring lately

woke up super "EARLY" todae.

suppose to be in school by 7.30( alah klau dtg siang pon mane ada pape pe!)

ank yazid bngon pukul 7.15.

alarm sounded at 6.30

everytime the phone rings shes gonna sae " 5 more min. PROMISE!"

she only sleep for 5 hours tau! its no enough!

HAHA! after school she pay back all her sleeps

sleep frm 1.30 untill 6.30!

btw, hannah and jai came late for exm

hannah: 8.25am

jai: 8.35am

=.=

i swear i super lazy to go to school on mon!

amazingly, im so excited to sit for CPA and EOA pratical ppr on 9th and 11th september

please score well for this subject aqilah!

KURUS RINDU GEMOK!

2008-09-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

CCKS 2008 CROSS COUNTRY!

MY EX-CLASSMATES; krajians!

TEACHERS DAY CELEBRATION!

CROSS COUNTRY
i swear i had fun running at chinese garden.OMG early in the morning somebody knock on my door. while im bathing, "AQILAHH! kwn-kwn kau dtg." huh? dtg? pagi -pagi buta? sekali sham, munn & fauzi kt dpn umah. =.= " korang buat per kt sini?" padahal-padahal i msged fauzi the night before that im not going with them. keras kepala uh kwn-kwnku ini. tibanya di sana, mcm tk sabar nk lari. oh well tis yr top 50 dpt trophy. dgn malangnya dgn effort aku lari tanpa henti. satu bende pon tk dpt! buat kn darah saya upp jer!

MEETING WITH EX-CLASSMATES
i swear i miss them alot! they changed alot..ada yg makin gemok.kurus and TATTOO!
omg tk sangka. bdk yg paling diam-diam dlm kelas dulu ada tattoo! sumpah sey terkejut aku dibuat nyer. but its ok lar. it dier nyer psl. and i met my ex-desk partner. SHAFIZ! yg selalu ddk bersama time MT and SCI selalu kiter share chocolate and sweets. best tau. skrng. no more la!

TEACHERS DAY CELEBRATION IN SCHOOL
i swear i cried to mdm rosnah tat day. mcm hari raye gitu mintak maaf. fiza and fana was about to cry biler tngok saya nagis. i swear i cnt control my tears. faiz saw i cried too. time madrasah lagi dier bleh ckp "kecian nyer, tat time kn ada bdk tau nagais kt cikgu dier. wah nnti kahwin jer ngn cikgu dier" =.= merepek uh tu faiz..but i swear im gonna miss my secondary life.
MDM ROSNAH IM SORRY FOR WHAT IVE DONE TO YOU ALLTHIS WHILE! IM GONNA MISS YOU AND THE OTHERS!

2008-08-27T22:25:00.009+08:00

finally we're having cross country on friday, chinese garden?!
intresting place to run isnt it?
;D

my target: top 20!

hopefully, AMIN!

and yes yes!

i spent my evening with my GFs and my place to bake brownie from teacher's day tomorrow.

and also we made a great mess in kitchen and playing those ingredients!

i swear i have fun, icing sugar? chocolate? ouh my! sabo-ing each other!

that's super awesome! iSWEAR!

after which, went to munnirah's place to continue our _____!

and we gossip too! ouh girls love to gossip

its ok. let its be a secret between me and her

&& while waiting for our browine to cook

we taking passport photo!

HAHA! its great la eh!

fiza and mel went home first

&& btw, i cooked nasi gorend for my friend ok!

tapi sorry lar, tawah lar :(

eh hello! at least tkde rase daripada masin, tetapi dgn adanya ikan bilis goreng.. semua menjadi secukup rase. terimah kasih ya ikan bilis. aku sngt banget sama kamu!

HAHA! and so habis jugakkn korang mkn. maknanya sedap jugak masakan aku!

;D pandai jugak ank yazid msk yer!

haha! i swear i cant wait for fridae! cross country babe!

must run! must run! must run!

and sad sad thing is! NO TRAINING TONIGHT!

BOOHOO!

ok enough talking!

PICTURES FOR TODAE MESS IN THE KITCHEN!

passport photo (first photoshot)

second photoshot:

Mess in the kitchen:

(ada org tanggan gatal smpai jatuh kuih tu)

" eh-eh jatuh-jatuh!" fiza menjerit!

(thanks to everyone uh eh! seronok usik org?! ;D)

(CANDID ok!)

(CANDID too!)

( ratu dapur!)

FINALLY!

and to my dearest BOYFRIEND!

pls come home soon

i miss you already!

and theres a comment from a girl

she seems to like you

COME HOME CEPAT-CEPAT BOYFRIENDKU!

AKU KAGEN SNGT SAMA KAMU SAYANG!

AYUH CEPATAN PULAGNYA!

sms-si aku ya klau kamu udah smpai!

2008-08-14T12:39:00.003+08:00

ouh yes. ive deleted my post on my birthady

its so boring actually!

ouh that FATASS is killing me!

im not kutuk-ing you lar!

but that the facts lar eh ~~ASS!~~

you think you are so LADY LIKE is it!

HAHA!

jealous? that i manage to get into the SCC game that dae?!

HAHA! SERVE YOU RIGHT FATASS!

next time when you do sumthing, think twice ok ass?!

im _____ fed-up with you right now!

who is the one who start it first!

hey NATASHA! do you thing by saeing sorry can change evrything?!

YOUR HEAD LAR!

IM NOT THAT TYPE OF PERSON!

IF YOU, CAN LAR!

IF THAT HAPPENED TO YOU!

YOU KNOW HOW MADLY YOU'LL BECOME?!

LIKE A MAD PIG!

ASS!

I HATE YOU FCUKER!

2008-08-05T22:51:00.004+08:00

SCC WON TODAY GAME AGAINST THE LONDON _____ STUDENTS!

2-1

haha! well-well. its great that we won todae game.

but the most sad part is that i manage to bring the ball up to the top!

IN THE 'D' ALREADY TAU! DA READY!

dgn semangatnyer! tiba-tiba someone kicked the ball!

i was like " WTF! did someone just save the ball?!"

=.=

some what we played on grass. the pushing and hitting was damn merepek!

really!

its diffrent from wad we played on the turf. turf is better! i swear!

but the padang is smaller la. tk bnyk lari sikit kn? kn? kn?

haha! with short mini skirt and tight top lari-lari!

punyer sexy! OMG! HAHA!

but at least we won tonight. but the england students are great!

they're going to melboure tomorrow!

SO LUCKY!

and sentosa in the moring, with the bikini!

haha!

GDNYTE

talk to my ex-boyfriend!

imy honey!

2008-07-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

NEW DESK PARTNER!
i SWEAR she is a little bit noisy and irritating at times
i'll get used to it later. HOPEFULLY!
&& she cried during CPA lesson, dont be so hardup
she can find a new friend to replace u, and why u cant?
i knw i experience that before
but i got something worst then this.
BOYFRIEND!
my BOYFRIEND, the person that you love MORE than your bestfriend!
its ok, u'll get over it ok

& FAZREE..
I think you've gone overboard ok boy!
dont think that ure mature enough.
change yourself, before you change others
i think u behave jus like my sis.
but she's 50% better than you.
only she's not a flirt, just like you are
you irritate people most of the time
bite and harm people too
dont you think you're the most irritaing person ever?
sorry to say that lar, but thats the facts.
and i dont think that my BF will entertain people like you
he have no time for that
and btw, he even dont let us be friends!
;D
HAHA!
YOU'RE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS!
&& fana got a new name for BJS..
BJS= budak-budak ~~jubo~~ senget!
=.=

SCHOOL DAY!
school starts with M.T
M.T was BORINNGG!
and next was english. expecting he came up first.
but but, he's not there!
as usually, we girls happily talking and gossiping for TWO PERIODS!
and the most funny and enjoyable lesson for todae was MATHS!
and surprisingly i was the first peron the hand up my worksheet!
i was like OMG!
melon was angry bout her secrets passing around.
;D
HAHA!
I WAS THE FIRST PERON TO PASS UP!
i was the only one who pass up the worksheet today
the rest, haha! HOMEWORK!
SUPERR SLACK!
theres this qn ask to measure, bt i was so damn blur!
i went to calculate.
mcm paham kn.

C²= A²+B²

padahal-padahal! setakat pakai ruler jer tau.
aku pergi calculate.
lagi sempat tanyer..

AQILAH: CHER! which is adj? which is opp?
MS SEE: *SMILE & STARE*
AQILAH: huh? what?! =.=
MS SEE: MEASURE!
AQILAH:(mcm bdh!) ouhh measure! not calculate! omg! why am i so stupid!
finding the hardest way, actually i dont have to
=.=
MS SEE: haha! i dont have to sae. u said it urself
AQILAH: ;D

ouhh my..ouhh my!
and for the drawing i scored full marks!
i did better den melon and fana!
TK SANGKA PANDAI JUGA AKU NE KN!
TNGOK LAR ANK SAPE KN!
;D

&& everyone was out of mood!
except me!
i was the most happiest girl in class!
laughing all day long
SUPER TIRING!
and i got bad bad bad headache now
frm school until now..

FEVER!

biler i online, u tk online..
berjam i tunggu you
sampai sempat post panjang-panjang
haizz..
:[

2008-06-19T23:24:00.004+08:00

YESTERDAY (18 June 2008)

yesterday was awesome!
and thanks alot for the ice-cream
appreciated!
sorry about the vanilla flavour.
i promise i wont forget tat flavour if we're gonna eat ice-cream together again
please show me your gig video, i wanna watch tat badly.
the drum is so loud, i cant hear ur voice. i swear!
and i love the pictures tat we took yesterdae.
and most of all, I LOVE YOUR JANGGOT HILMI!
SUMPAH! I TK BOHONG!
best kn dpt mataer ada janggot? tk sia-sia i..
haha!
tapi really lar, i love to watch hulk with u yesterdae.
;D
we watch again ok after my N lvls. not hulk lar of course
im starting to miss you already
btw, thanks for everything ok
both of us sugguh bohong kat kawan-kawan kiter psl nk keluar nyer psl? HAHA!
i cannot forget about that. thats the cutest thing ever!

THANK YOU SO MUCH HILMI!

7 june 2008-15 june 2008
im starting to miss this people so much!
they are the ones who make my dae, EVERYDAE!
bt one thing for sure i HATE those cat very much.
the female cat, which is ibu kepada TIMMY( kuching jugak)
she LOVE eating RATS!
super jijik sey!
btw, rats heads nt the whole thing.
whenever tat cat come near me, im gonna kick her..
am i being bad?
but honestly, i nvr love cats.
so cats, dont come near me. i can be very very jahat tau!
u cekar i, i tendang muker u!
i tk takot lar ok!
I MUST NOT BE AFRAID OF CATS!
;D

i really miss those days
i hope to see you guys soon in singapore.
if not, i'll spent my holidays there.
insyallah..

2008-06-14T16:40:00.002+08:00

u've been gone for a week now. ohh please come back.

i'm soo lonely without you. please come back safe.

please. im worried every day n night.

not knowing when u'll be coming back.

as long as nothing has happened then i'll be relieved.

I LOVE YOU

and mostly,

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!

2008-06-13T00:28:00.001+08:00

WHERE ARE YOU?

u said maybe u'll be coming back on wed.

that's a maybe. but not even thursday?!

i'm beginning to worry bout u.

i hope u're safe. :(

2008-06-09T23:52:00.002+08:00

didnt update for the last 2 nights.

coz there was nothing to be excited about.haha.

SATURDAY.

u left for batam. raining all day. then takraw in the evening till late.

reach home at 11pm. dats all.:)

SUNDAY.

stay at homee up till 5. gym. haha.

TODAY.

well today was a big outing. ecp with poly frens + fadhli. haha.

everyone was all pumped up for the day. met at 10 30 at pending.

first activity when we reached there was straight to the ever so salty sea.

it was blazing hot and who could ever deny a swim to cool off.

then soccer. 3 vs 3. the funny thing was, there was a shit right

in the middle of the space we were playing on.

n we didnt realise it till 10 mins of play.

someone n i dunno who stepped on it.

was all yuckish so back to the sea it was. haha.

hang out playing bluff n listening to songs. one by one

our mp3s batt when flat.

cycling was up next at arnd 4. fad, mus, hapiz n fadly took the twin bikes.

while i n amin took singles. we cycled all the was to bedok jeti.

with pitstops of course. eating ice cream. haha.

finally we raced back to our spot. overtaking everyone.

the rest of activities were pretty random. up till 9 30pm when we make our way back.

overall today's activity was pretty fun. it's not usual for me to have fun

with my frens who are not frm dob. haha.

NOTE:

aqilah i'm missing you. :)

2008-06-07T11:17:00.003+08:00

IMY

this is my 7th post for todae
is super irritating lar ok
sitting here for 45 min to post, wen even im in hurry
my dad keeps nagging to get ready
on my first post i really put all my effort
the first one always the best
on my last 6 post i tried to make it the same
bt it not
i cried wen i was posting, the first one
sekali semua terdelete
omg!
super sedih sey. hey im leaving already
im gonna miss you
i'll take care and u take care too ok.
i hope u'll miss me too.
my eyes are killing me, i cry so hard last night
bt nothing change, it all remains the same
u and ur decision
bt i knw deep down inside u still love me.
i jus dont want both of our feelings fade hilmi.
once its fade, its hard to get it back.
remember wen we broke up tat time
how hard for me to get you back
its hard
and now, even if my feelings for you fade
im scared tat it'll fade one day

ok now, i really gtg.
i need to be there at 12 actually.
dad and mum keeps nagging
fortunately, dad dint knw im post
and tats GD!
i hope u'll miss me too
and still love me like how u love me one tuesday
i wont tahan-tahan to b___k if i want too.
klau da tk bleh. dont blame me, cause memalukn sungguh ok
haha!
i promise ill msg u wen i get back
jus wait ok
and keep me update through my blog, and if ang girls msg/talk to u.
tell me alright.

ILY&IMY
i want you too!
tc and gdbye!

2008-05-27T23:26:00.002+08:00

rain. rain. rain. its been awhile since it rained in the afternoon.. n i just happened to reach school b4 it started.. for ur info i skipped my first lesson at 9am which was ia coz i didnt want to get up.. haha.. so just came for vi at 1pm.. but i reached at 1 30pm.. late late late. haha.. 3 hours of sch to sum up for today. class end.. off to gym.. it was packed with s&w students.. made our mood down to work out... so we jus ended up working out for 1 hour only.. went cheers. cup noodles. then home.. boring i know.. haha.. n up till now i am watching anime.. today is just like everyday.. the only thing is im still missing u.. not msging u at night.. sianz.. ure coming home tmrw.. yeay!.. hope ure having fun up till now.. snorkling and stuff... hear from u soon! love ya..

2008-05-26T23:35:00.003+08:00

hey hey hilmi here.. ^^ .. sorry didnt post last night..

was all tired frm kendarat.. told u right how stress i was bcoz of the work ydae.. i mean da lah kate 1000 jemputan beh 1800+ yg dtg, beh hujan lebat smpai baju sluar sumer basah kuyup time kerje.. beh biler tngah busy2 ade makcik ne dtg kt dapur bising2.. tkle understand situasi langsung.. most of the guests pon mkn mcm b***.. k bkn mkn ah actually tapi tamak.. amik lauk2 smpai mcm satu mountain.. beh tk mkn abis.. membazir!.. kol 4 jer byk lauk2 dabis.. beh makcik tu bising lagi.. -.-.. drinks refill tk smpai 10 min dabis.. mcm guragas ah semua.. matrep da lah ramai.. stress banget aku smlm.. haha.. i knw dear surely ull laugh of me complaining... tapi tkpelah end up dpt 50 ketul jugak.. hee! we then headed to west mall utk lepak skjap.. dngan sluar2 yg basah.. sejuk!!!!!!!!!!

n u know what.. i was wondering klau u da smpai ke blm smlm mlm.. haha..

k den onwards to today.. i tell u nothing happend today.. i just had to wake up early for my 8am french class.. it was the final lesson.. had written test n powerpt presentation.. we did on famous french pianist which was absolutely boring.. its all over now.. woots~.. end of class.. off to sim for lunch with zeid, charles n azureen.. mkn mkn mkn sambil bbual.. n we noticed that we didnt know half of our classmates name after the whole 6 weeks.. i mean they were totally quite.. n usually its only me n zeid n one other table yg kecoh skit.. n we're gonna miss u mr benoit!!! haha.. funny lecturer.. after lunch tk tau mane nk pegi.. balek ah.. but den at arnd 3pm zeid came by my house since we were bored.. yg lain sumer abis kol 5.. bingit jer kiter 2 jer abis kol 12... played winning eleven the most i won him 8 matches to 2.. wahaha! dulu asik kau jer yg menang.. skrg aku lah beb!... haha bbual matrep!... he went off at 7 den ade ngaji smpai 9+.. im all tired now.. tapi mls nk tidor.. sianz...

n how was ur day over at langkawi dear? haha must be great.. i want to see the pictures of ur holiday when u get back k.. n I MISS YOU!..

2008-05-25T17:43:00.001+08:00

HELLO! (:

im actually posting in the airport now.

waiting for the gate to open

i mean im not waiting

but still. all ok

boarding pass is all clear!

haha! believe it or not!

i cried!

im so so sad!

TOODLES~!

2008-05-22T18:26:00.004+08:00

i'll be leaving this sunday
and im gonna miss my family and BF!

i spent my evening with my BF yesterday
and for the first time. he sleep!
the way he slept i super duper cute sey!
i swear. on the right arm he's supporting his head and on the other hand.
holding my hand.
SUPER BAGOS EH HILMI
(:
let me tell you this.
I GONNA MISS YOU LIKE HELL!

and when i come back.
we'll go out together again ok
but this time. please think of something
some where to go.
and aqilah, please dont forget this time
make yourself free one day.
just for one day.
bake hilmi something or else he'll be very very sad and angry!
i swear!
he's jus like a lion who haven't eat his meal for days!
he's super duper fierce ok!
dont let him sae" you are the worst GF ever!" again!
pls dont sae that anymore ok dear?
im so sad when u sae tat!

but now, i love my evening yesterday!
thank you!
and im sorry for making you late for your takraw
so so sorry!
i didnt mean to
forgive me ok?

tell me if u forgive me!

ily!

MAN U WON LAST NIGHT!
AND TO CHELSEA!
BOOO HOO HOO!!
LOSEEERR!!

sorry BF, but on this i have to support man u!
nt chelsea!
i cant, cause chelsea lose lastnight!
haha!
too bad!
BOO HOO HOO CHELSEA!

(:

2008-05-08T10:45:00.004+08:00

you're a coward actually!

so dont deny that.

you're just an attention seeker all the time.

so all of us dont really give a damn on you.

but, ure sickening freak.

we all can bear with you CHILDISNESS at time.

but the way you act really make us all sick.

all we wish for is for you to gone forever.

Sorry to say that..i dont care if u wanna give a s__t on me or all of us ok.

we all really dont care.

i really cant what till the last time i'll see you.

i wont miss you.

not anly but but everyone else does.

but still, its our last year being together.

so,for the mean time i'll bear with your stupid attitude.

i really wish that you're not here with us anymore.

i can say that 5% of you are "NICE!"

95% of you i can sae SUPER IRRITATING!

but what can i sae, u're still my friend

all i can sae now, gd luck in meeting him and his gang after school later ok.

This is for you,____my classmate..

BF,

*sobbed**sobbed*

no breakfast on sunday morning.

CANCEL!

due to your____ on sunday.

sad sad lar sey.

but what i can i sae kn?

terpaksa lar kiter jumpe on nxt sundae.

our day out together.

but fetch me on thursdae night at CCAB after my hockey selection?

please!

yeaa! u miss me?

you serious ke u miss me?

i hope btol lar ehk u really do!

i miss talking/seeing you sey!

:'(

i really do!

and its been a long time that you "ily"

another reason for being sad!

make me happy please!

thank you my love!

see you soon?

GTG, lesson ended!

IMY!

2008-04-10T21:49:00.008+08:00

IMY!
and i really really do!
last day of the week and i promise i'll come to school because of you!
can i be selected in the hockey club thing?
i really hope so!
please!
daddy, i promise i'll study extra hard!
EXTRA EXTRA HARD!
i really wanna join!
THAT BADLY!
can i come to school tomorrow?
im starting to miss you!
ok-ok, stop it lar ok!

ouh yesh hilmi, i missed to watch the TABAH show..
cause i overslept or i cant be bothered to watch..
its a waste of time!
(:
so haha!
i missed it!
IM SO GLAD!

AND YESH, I KNOW TAT UR STATUS IS MUCHHH HIGHER THAN ME!
BUT I GUESS, I PREFER A STUPID BF THAN A PLAYBOY!(:

ouhh, u prefer a smart and playgirl GF ryt?
ouh go ahead!

SO WAD IF URE MUCCH SMARTER THAN ME!!
AT LEAST, IM NOT A PLAYGIRL LIKE HER!!

its ok to be stupid than a playgirl!
i dont need to be a playgirl to feel good!
and i knw, u give up on me!
):

2008-04-01T22:13:00.009+08:00

i jus suddenly think that ive fallen for this girl!
the girl tat i hate the most last time!
lately, she said she love me..
but i guess, i'll treat all of them the same!
the girls i mean!
fazree really testing my patience sey!
im not sooo cheaappp ahr ehh!!
so please!
mum wanna warning him.she wanna call fazree!
baek ahr, baik dier kene ngn mamaku!
;D
sajak muker ko!
&
&

THANK YOU SAYANG FOR FETCHING ME TADI!
AND SEND ME TO GRANNY HOUSE!
THANK YOU SAYANG!
THANK YOU SAYANG!
I LOVE YOU!

and i kena aprilfool by BF twice sey!!
nk fool dier semlm tk menjadi!
spoilt lar! but its ok..next year!
(:
detention was quite fun..
not so boring!
and the best part of the dae is!
CAM-WHORE!
WE NVR FAILS TO CAM-WHORE ALOT!
me and fiza the most!
and i saw afiq otw home wif BF!
can i sae, tat i like her?!
ouhh no! no!

LETS GO SHOPPING!

2008-03-30T23:53:00.009+08:00

shop kat NTUC ngn u pon fun!
belajar lar mcm mane nk pilih chili.
and Aqilah learnt something new today.
sesame OIL tu bkn minyak bt sumting like kicap
;D
kn? kn? i dont knw!
but tkper la!
i enjoy 95% our dae todae
5%?
dont mention lar!
because of tat stupid msg lar i SUPER PISSED OFF!
must promise me ok ull tell me if she msg u lagi or u reply her. ok?
promise tau!
dont worry! for now i still love you!
but dont hurt me some more lar!
i kinda miss you lar!
I LOVE YOU LAR!
;D

&
&
&
i got her photo frm the back!
at last i talk to her!
i jus wanna knw wad bout her make you fall of her!
(:

DONT FALL OF DIER LAGI LAR HILMI!
U MUST LOVE ME EVERYDAE!
OK? OK?
PROMISE?!;D

HANAH!
(HILMI'S EX FLAME!)

AQILAH: she's SUPERR CUTE!
HILMI: HAHA! she's playgirl

;D

2008-03-27T23:41:00.005+08:00

SUPER BIG DAE!

spent my evening wif my gundu-gundu friends!
total no of bite i got is 6!
super idiotic lar tat person!
its all started from yesterdae!
6 bekas gigi di tanganku!
sakit giler la!
SUMPAH SEY TK BEDEK!
BENGKAK SEY TANGANKU!
Sharizal is super baek lar todae!
free sotong ball and potatoe frm him!
dier bwk bekal pergi sekolah!
ge lepak after school!
suppose to have detention todae!
haha..biasa la..cabot!
reason: ouh ive NSC appointment todae, sorry cant make it todae
haha! super bad lar aqilah for lying!
bt i have to!
cause im super tired todae..
and im hungry now!
nk mkn bt, im on diet!

and she sae she love me!
aww so sweet lar!

hilmi: i miss you soooo much
sumpah

hilmi: u letak dp u ne uat i geram!
make me just wanna hold u

2008-03-25T15:47:00.016+08:00

NUS OPEN 2008

2008-03-24T23:09:00.011+08:00

ouh well..
23 march 2008!
SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU ABG KHAIR AND KAK HALIZA!
(:

im superr tired on sat and sunday!
ive fun on sundae!
aliffah really make our perut nk pecah sey!
ketawe non-stop!
and arriyan super cute lar!
SUMPAH!
and naufal, HELLO BABY BOY!
u super cute lar!
(:
biler saya punyer turn ehk?
haha!

GDNYTE!